Kanga’s Kitchen

So the Ovia app’s week 5 baby-size is peppercorns, which most recipes seem to feature in a sauce for steaks. I made the sauce & a couple side dishes, then took Roo & Ruby outside to play while Christopher Robin grilled the steaks & kabobs. Then I started spotting, and lost the baby overnight. “You give & take away; Lord, blessed be Your Name.” This one feels harder than the last one, but I know God is good and I know He has a good purpose. Now I have two babies waiting for me in Heaven….  

Our Little Blessing 2 has preceded us to Heaven. My heart is heavy with the unexpected loss, but the Father has comforted my heart with the reminder that s/he is not without close biological family up there!  Here's a list of some others, who welcomed our sweet little Ruci with all the hugs & kisses we'd pour out on him/her if only we could. And someday we'll get to share in those Heavenly loving's too....  My husband's eldest child, who died soon after conception because s/he never implanted correctly. My husband's dad, who died years ago from heart trouble after weed-eating outside in hot summer. Ruby’s older sister, who was stillborn. My mom's 3 never-born children ... and all the other miscarried little ones in my maternal ancestry. I got the call the other day - letting me know my bloodwork that morning had an HcG level of only 6, a sharp decrease from 137 in my bloodwork a week previously. I slept poorly that  night, mourning our precious Ruci'...